FlipFlop

This is Me... A FlipFlop.

Just when I think I have made my mind up about something, of course I rethink it all and change my mind. It doesn't matter what it is, I flipflop my way through it. This puppy business, I am a mess, Yes, No, Yes, No. I have my pros and I have my cons, I am a list person. As of right now the cons list is higher. BUT then I come home from picking up Lolo from her last day of preschool and walk in the door thinking- Ya know it would be nice to come home to someone happy to see me. I grew up with a dog. I had my own little white dog when I was a little girl. Loved it to pieces. Tisha and I went everywhere together. We rode bikes, she sat in the doll stroller, the wagon, we ran all over the neighborhood. (Remember when kids were allowed to run all over the neighborhood???) The little voice in my head that says this puppy thing is a phase, the kids will get bored with it, they will forget...is also screaming at me... remember Tisha, remember how much you loved that dog. Is it the right time? Well seriously...is it ever? Is there ever a perfect time to get a puppy. If I thought like that then I doubt I would have started having a family so early. Do you see it? It's happening again...I'm leaning toward yes. Oh how I wish I was a person who knew all the answers, but then again is life really truly interesting if you know what you are going to do and when you are going to do it? Maybe this flipflop life is perfect for me, it keeps me thinking, it keeps me guessing. So as for the puppy...I have 3 more weeks before they can go home with anyone. I have 3 more weeks to decide. AND I have 3 more weeks of sweet, annoying, honest obsessive begging from the kids. At least the toy room has been clean... they really want a puppy!

What the Kids are Begging for...

So Beautiful!

Mother's Day Morning I wake up to nurse Dels, Annie wakes up and crawls across me to get to Hubby. I hear a noise on the steps, get up to check and I see Lolo coming upstairs with a tray...with grape juice. I jump back in bed so I don't ruin the surprise and tell Hubby it would be wise to assist her. I am served my juice and poptart- Yum! Hubby takes the youngest two downstairs, Lolo disappears, I am alone and it's quiet. I close my eyes and enjoy the peace. I am next instructed to keep my eyes shut.

Hmmmm.... wonder what they are up to? Look who made Mom Beautiful!

Do you think they had a tad bit of fun jazzing me up?

After I was made beautiful we all came downstairs for some cinnamon rolls (and COFFEE)

It was a Beautiful start to my Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to you all!

WW~Wishing I Was Here!

The words to go with the pictures...

My FIL is home from the hospital. He is resting, recovering and ready to be back to his busy body self. After the dance recital we took the oldest two children to the hospital to visit him...in their dance costumes. They were so happy, giggly and uplifting. It was perfect.

The Graduation Party went really well. We did the mad dash house clean up, lawn mowed, glasses rinsed, serving platters out, coolers filled. It was great! For that split moment before people showed up...my house was clean. Everything put away, bathroom looked untouched, towels clean, beds made. It's just proof that it can be done and should be done more often...Ha!

The dance recital was wonderful! I'm just going to be the proud Mama for a minute so stick with me and listen to me brag and boast. Ok~ my children were the ones that the whole group watched. They knew their stuff. They had their dance steps memorized. They performed them beautifully and were very proud of themselves. From beginning to end they were performers, from walking out to the end curtsy. Molly with her toothless grin, Lolo with her skinny little self. They were happy and loving it and I was the proud Mom on the edge of my seat clapping loudly, even a few Hoot Hoots. Not only was I proud of my dancers, but my audience was amazing as well. The seats were the fold up kind like in a movie theater. Little Annie sat in one by herself, looking teeny tiny, but determined to sit alone. She sat there quietly with her legs crossed and her hands folded on her lap and watched. She was so patient, so quiet, so fascinated and just plain perfect. As if that was not enough I turn to the other side and see my Hubby who is rocking Dels in the carseat...asleep. Can we freeze time? For this little blip of time, everything was calm, everyone was happy. I didn't want to blink. *sigh* It was perfect.

Then there was Monday...back to reality. Annie pees on the freshly cleaned rug and her clothes, can't be one or the other, it has to be both. Beds are all messy, crumbs all over the floor. I change Dels diaper and lay her on the floor to roll around. I ran upstairs to grab some warmer clothes, run back down and start to change her...she's wet. Not her diaper, her diaper is dry. One tab came undone, the diaper slid to the side...just far enough and she peed. *sigh* So that rug is wet, those clothes soaked. A little while later and I am holding Dels on my chest, we are looking into each others faces, smiling, making faces, giggling...then she spits up...on my chin, down my neck, into my shirt... did I really expect perfect to last? Ha! But you know what, to me this is perfect. I am a Mom to 4 wonderful children, I am needed, wanted, hugged, spit up on, peed on and loved. When I was sitting there covered in spit up, wondering how I was going to move...I reminded myself that I am going to miss this someday. Not today, but someday. Until then I will try my best to live each and everyday enjoying it all and taking it all in.
The not so perfect and the perfect.

Check out their recital pictures below...

I Hope You Dance!

Spare Time

At least the kids have spare time!

Poor Jakey, he's not thrilled to be dressed up in doll clothes, but he wasn't running away either. He loves the attention. I don't have much time to post lately, but I had to share these pics and a quick update/prayer request. My FIL went into the hospital last night with double pnemonia. He is doing well, but he is the backbone to everything around here, so the world is topsy turvy. My SIL J graduates from College today. I will have to dedicate another post to her later this week. She is having a graduation party tomorrow and because of the topsy turvyness, we volunteered to host the party at our house. See, I knew I was on a spring cleaning binge for a reason. Needless to say, we have dance recitals today, soccer games and a party to prepare.

Stay tuned for more updates as they come, some recital pictures too.

Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend!